It won’t promote the book or make you want to pick up your own copy it if I tell you that I didn’t start reading it the day I bought it early at a Pre-Sale book table when I attended the She Speaks Conference at the end of July.
I’ve had access to it prior to it’s release date and I never even cracked the cover, but that doesn’t mean that God didn’t tell me to read it countless times.
Emails and mentions on social media have bombarded my brain. Friends and family have fawned their excitement for it’s final release, and still my heart, for some reason had created this crusty corner where I sat in resistance.
I’m honestly quite a fan of the work and words of Lysa TerKeurst, but for some reason, I just felt this book was not the one for me. After all, my life is not… at least not right now, is not demanding. In fact, it’s not in any way demanding.
I’m not employed… I quit my job to write, study and pursue, uuh… wait, I’m working on that.
My daughters are grown, or mostly grown… and don’t need much from me anymore (except cash).
My marriage is stable (well, mostly… who’s is, really?).
My blog is… well, just is.
I have flighty ideas and dreams that I share with no one, for fear they find me crazy.
I’m mostly unpacked in our new home… although the walls are still somewhat bare since I tend to fear punching too many holes in the wall… (perfectionism)
I’m an exercise fanatic. (perfectionism, again)
I have no idea what my future holds because… I have no idea what to do with my ideas.
So… Why do I need THIS book?
There are no real demands on my life?
And I sometimes wish someone would call and demand… or at least ask something of me.
I guess, honestly, I felt resentment that I wasn’t “In Demand.”
Maybe I was simply jealous of others who were in demand?
Even though I’ve lived that life and know how stressed out I was, somehow I miss being wanted, needed, demanded.
But I picked up the book today, anyway.
Out of Obedience.
God kept telling my heart… Read it!
“Maybe one day I’ll ask you to lead a Bible Study on it and then you’ll be prepared!”
So I picked it up and began.
By the end of Chapter 3, I had not only underlined and written all over the pages, I was on my second tissue and ready to begin some new resolutions!
My heart’s deepest desire is to move others… the way her words move in my heart.
I want to affect people like that!
Wait… (press pause) here comes tissue number three. (not kidding)
Even though many of the pages of Lysa’s life read about her overfilled, demanding days…
In-between the lines… the spaces… that’s where I found my life.
Lysa’s words leapt from the page, grabbed my heart…
“…from those holes leaks the cry of the unfulfilled calling that never quite happened… simply because we didn’t heed the warning of the whispers within that subtle space.”
I have those leaky holes.
I have the unfulfilled calling that never quite happened.
I hear the whispers.
I have lots of space… lots of ideas with no where to go… no idea what I’m supposed to do with them.
But if I want to find, “… the thrill of that deep soul satisfaction,” then I need to seek His instruction so that I can find my assignment.
I have always wanted to know my assignment.
I have often been awakened at night, heard a whisper, felt a stirring.
But knowing when and how; knowing the first step is so hard for me.
I am easily distracted and fearful of failure.
“Whether you turn to the right or to the left, your ears will hear a voice behind you, saying, ‘This is the way; walk in it.'” Isaiah 30:21
I am waiting for You, Lord.
I am expecting and looking and longing for You.
I seek Your victory,
Your joy and
Your matchless, unbroken companionship!
I don’t want to miss you this time, Lord.
Those are just some of my inspiring thoughts.
Here are some sample pages that I found of great personal value…
I encourage you to order a copy for yourself.
THIS is truly a great study!
I am thankful that I chose to pick up this book today.
God always knows what is best for my heart.
Tomorrow morning, God… Chapter 4.
Thank you, Lysa!
From the corners of my crusty heart… which are now more like warm toast… (not buttered, because that’s not really my style, but sure sounds better), I admire and love that you have pursued your passions and listened to God’s calling on your life. Many have been blessed by your words and actions, you honesty and compassion. I pray that one day, I can be faithful to take more than one or two steps forward in my passion to honor Him and fulfill the purpose He has for me.
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Lysa TerKeurst is the New York Times bestselling author of Made to Crave and Unglued. She isn’t shy about admitting what a mess she can be. But in the midst of everyday “growth opportunities,” she’s been learning God’s lessons and sharing them on her blog (www.LysaTerKeurst.com) and in her books. Lysa is president of Proverbs 31 Ministries and writes from her sticky farm table in North Carolina where she lives with her husband, Art, five kids, three dogs, and mouse that refuses to leave her kitchen.