Today I was asked, “Mrs. Wagner, have you ever done drugs?”
To which I replied, “No.”
Even at my age, oddly, I am feeling awkward.
I don’t want to do drugs and never did. But, no one wants to hear laughter at their expense and feel like an outsider.
I am not like “them” and sense that I have nothing to offer; I cannot relate to their difficult background and have no “redemptive story” of my own.
I am puzzled: perplexed, bewildered, questioning, “Lord, why did You call me to this place? How do I fit in?”
And God replies ever so softly to my heart as I read,
“…speak the truth in love, growing in every way more and more like Christ who is the head of His body, the church. He makes the whole body fit together perfectly. As each part does it s own special work, it helps the other parts grow, so that the whole body is healthy and growing and full of love.”
I speak each day at school. I teach, I help, and I lead. The first part of His command to me, I am already doing. I need to accept the rest of it.
This is the sort of life puzzle that God puts into place at a certain season, for a certain purpose, to teach lessons to us all.
This puzzle wasn’t mass-produced, packaged and sold on the shelf at Target.
I can’t simply prop up the lid and glance at the picture to see how it will all fit together.
Rather, I need to do my part with love, and use the strengths that God has given me and humbly let God, “put me in my place.”
He has brought me to Still Creek Christian Academy and Ranch at this moment, for these students and staff for a reason.
I will give all that I have and openly receive all that He has for me. I need to be more than a teacher; I need to be a student as well.
We are all shaped to fit together.
Just like pieces of a puzzle, we have strengths that stand out; weaknesses that cause void spaces in our shape. But that is exactly what pieces of a puzzle are made to do…
Fill the void for each other.
I can fill and be filled.
“Lord, put me in my place.”
Do not let me be so proud that I am unaware of the fact that I can be filled by them, as well. They have much to teach me.
Let us not judge the shape of each piece, but rather stand back and enjoy the beauty of the entire picture God is creating.
Let us not bully or use harsh words that could cause another to be misshapen or broken, for it will cause a piece of God’s creation to be, “less than a perfect fit.”
God certainly can find a place for that changed shape, and he can re-create a new piece to fit it’s void, but let’s not delay His purpose or His plan.
Is it possible that my selfishness can get in the way of His masterpiece; that my petty jealousy or harsh words toward another can keep them from taking their perfect place in the beauty of His creation? Maybe they will not fill the void of another person in need because I caused them brokenness?
The enemy would be more than pleased to keep God’s plan from helping us to connect. Could it be that the very person who could be best for my connection, is the one whom I am the most likely to resist? That I tend to wall them out of my life or distance any emotional relationship? That I am “too busy,” or “inconvenienced,” to reach out to them?
That’s just the way that satan would like it. He would have us remain alone and isolated; hurting and thinking that no one else understands our pain or struggle. He wants us disconnected, isolated and lacking in grace, mercy and forgiveness. Anything to keep God from receiving the glory; anything that helps us to grow and learn, bringing more to a perfect knowledge and personal relationship with Jesus.
Sadly, we too often listen to the lies of the enemy and become tempted to look only at the individual pieces of the puzzle; analyzing their shapes, what they lack, how they are different. Swirling thoughts, trapped in our minds that never seem to end.
Step back. Take a breath. Just when you think you can’t…
This is a time to see the the puzzle for what God had planned.
I will choose to stay committed and resolute to glorify God and not let down my guard. I need to make certain that the focus is not on filling my own needs, but connecting and trusting that God will take care of the needs.
After all, He does not NEED us to fulfill His purpose or create His beauty.
He is able to do all things.
But he WANTS us to be a part of his creation!
For our good and our joy.
How amazing that He could stand back and watch as a pile of mis-shapen pieces gather the strength to work together, figuring out how to glorify Him and make beauty from their jig-sawed mess.
How it must delight Him to watch from Heaven above as we set out to accomplish His perfect purpose and plan. I wonder if, as our picture takes it’s shape, the light shining upon it grows brighter, as the angels watching in anticipation, awaiting the final few pieces to be set into their resting place, cheer from the sidelines, “Left, left… no, up to the right a bit more… that’s it, now straighten it out a bit… yay!”
I like to imagine a Heavenly celebration so great that it can be heard in the morning waves crashing louder against the rocky coast…
Seen in a double rainbow streaking across the late afternoon sky…
And wished upon as the evening sky boasts more than one shooting star across it’s cloud free slate.
“Lord God, put me in my place.”