Me? No thanks! I wanted to crawl in a hole.
Not only did I not have a cute pair to wear, I always feared stepping out if my mom’s car, walking toward the school only to find that no one else was dressed in pajamas. I had marked the wrong day on my calendar!
Not that it ever happened… just in my imagination.
Besides, even if I did get the date right, what’s so great about being JUST like everyone else?
Even as a grown-up, I struggle with these kind of days. Teachers have them for in-service, field trip days, and “Red Ribbon Week” theme days.
Sorry, I know… Party-Pooper!
But that’s just not how I see it. I guess I’d just rather show my own style.
…my own flare,
…my own flavor.
It’s just too easy to be “like” everyone else.
Or is that just an excuse? A rationalization?
Sometimes I realize once the day has gotten underway, that those people who dressed up seem to be having so much more fun. Laughter and smiles all around, they are snapping photos, posting on Facebook and making memories.
Maybe I should have ditched my fears and joined in.
I have the same sort of fears looming this month… only a bit larger.
As I prepare for a long awaited event this summer, the ‘She Speaks Conference,’ by Proverbs 31 Ministries, I have preparations to make.
There’s not really a “Pajama Day,” or a dress up theme at the event, but I have climbed out on a limb and challenged myself to meet with publishers to present my book idea.
It’s not fully written, nor is that expected. But I have done my research and have been served a big helping of, “get to work!”
There is a long list of suggested items I should be prepared to hand to the publisher… all new to me.
Yes, blanks. There are many expectations publishers hold these days, with the internet presence of today, that I am lacking.
While YOU are MOST appreciated as a subscriber and reader to my blog, I have a small number of “YOU’s”. Most publishers want a readership of 25,000 or more. I have about 250 on a really good day!
I have NOTHING to wear for THAT theme day!
So part of me just wants to rebel and dress in an “outfit” of my own choosing, bringing only those written items that I’m used to… or comfortable wearing.
I won’t “fit in,” I fear.
But I guess I won’t “stand out,” either.
This morning, I was reading in my quiet time from the book of Ruth, chapter 3.
I was really praying for God to speak to my heart.
I read it twice and wondered, “God, what do You have for me, I don’t see it.”
And then on the third pass, while I took notes, He showed me.
Ruth 3:5 “And Ruth said to her, ‘All that you say to me I will do‘.”
Ruth had been working in the fields of a wealthy land owner named Boaz, gleaning (picking up what fell behind the harvest workers). She had found favor with Boaz and was protected in his fields.
On returning from work one day, her mother-in-law, Naomi gave her advice to seek Boaz as her “kinsman,” to take care if her in the future. Maybe she was trying to… you know, set her up on a date?
It seems that Naomi had become concerned that Ruth needed to HAVE a future and she didn’t want here to stay widowed and alone.
Without hesitation, Ruth accepts the direction and follows it, EXACTLY.
She was given advice from someone more experienced, someone who had lived life. She showed respect and took action.
Some of it, to me, honestly sounds very bold and kind of, well…crazy.
But so do some if the things I hear God telling my heart to do at times.
So why do I rebel against the directions and specific guidelines I’ve been given by the advisors of this conference? Why don’t I want to do “ALL that I have been instructed.”
These women are my “Naomi’s”. These women have lived more life and experienced publishing.
Why on earth would I NOT “wear the Pajamas?”
“As crazy as the theme seems to be, Lisa, get with it and join in. Put aside your fears, trust God and take all that He has given you to step into.”
I do not want to have regret. I do not want to hear others boast of their success and think, “I had that same opportunity and I blew it.” Or, “Why didn’t I prepare better when I knew it was Pajama Day?” And, “Why did I let them have all the fun while I just watched and wallowed in my self-pity?”
So today is the day. DETERMINED, I will set my mind on filling in as many blanks as I can and trust God with the ones I cannot.
I will accept this challenge, stay out here on this limb and pick the sweetest fruit.
And then I will relax and re-read the last verses of that same chapter in Ruth.
Ruth 3:18 “Sit still, my daughter, until you learn how the matter turns out.”
Oh… and I guess I’ll go shopping and find a cute pair of pajamas to wear!