But, seriously, if I give a bad answer and can’t really tell much difference, won’t I get the wrong prescription?
I was recently fitted for a pair of multi-focal contacts.
Boy, those are “something” to get used to!
And when I say… FITTED, I mean, I returned to the eye doctor week after week changing out one lens at a time with the tiniest of adjustments, trying to get that “just right” combination of near and far vision.
I was only willing to tolerate this process because I finally found an ophthalmologist who was willing to tolerate me!
The last few eye doctors I went to seemed to not be able to find a solution to my vision problems. One guy said that I was not “correctable,” and told me to just put a cheap pair of $1 readers in every room so that I always had a pair within reach.
Another sold me a very expensive pair of progressive lenses that I was always fearful of breaking and unable to wear while driving.
Of course there was that last resort, extreme option. I could go for that painful bone lengthening surgery for my arms so that I could actually get the prescription bottle to the right distance in front of my eyes in order to hold it AND read it, to call in the refill.
And now you see why I chose the multi-focal contacts.
But at week five, I finally told my eye doctor that I had decided I would rather see near than far. That is, if I had to make a choice, and sacrifice some sort of vision, I want to be able to read. That seems to be what I’m losing most rapidly in my 40’s.
So with a final few tweaks, we are done with the fittings and I am a multi-focal woman… I think.
And that’s exactly what messes with every single one of my days.
Should I sort things I’ve unpacked from my move?
Should I unpack more things even though I haven found a place for everything I’ve unpacked?
Should I take time to write on my Blog and keep up with the short term, seeking followers?
Should I write chapters for my book?
Should I order an address stamp or keep writing it on the envelopes?
I haven’t even notified all my friends, much less business of my change of address.
Where do I begin?
When will it end?
I remember things seeming more organized when I was younger.
I’m trying to keep up, but I have to rationalize that I just have more things to juggle now.
Tell me that I have more things to juggle now!
Stop. Breath, Lisa.
Remember, you chose to see near.
Focus on the near.
God says in Psalm 119:105, “Your Word is a lamp unto my feet and a light unto my path.”
He has not shone a beacon before me, or a time machine showing me all that is before me. He has put a small light at my feet showing me one step at a time.
He wants me in the present.
He wants me to be thankful for today.
“THIS is the day that the Lord has made. I will rejoice and be glad in IT.”
Psalm 118:24 (emphasis mine)
THIS IS NOT A TEST.
There is not a right answer. God has a plan for me and for you. I can walk steadily in today, knowing that I am in His plan each step of faith.
I will look at my “To Do” list and STILL enjoy each one.
Start at the top and begin crossing them off. It’s not a race. It’s not a competition. It’s not about perfection.
I choose to enjoy today and NOT be overwhelmed.
Here I go.
By the way, I think I’ll decorate my new study first. Then I can post some pictures so you can see where I am writing…. FUN!