Talk about a screeching halt to a lovely morning… YUK.
It couldn’t be more than 20 steps from the sink where I noticed the “spotlight on my crud,” to the garage door where I stopped with my hand on the handle to leave. As I stood there, I realized that my internal voice had just told me that, “I was a bad mom.”
I went from crumbs and dust bunnies to bad mom in 20 steps flat!
And it’s not the first time that it’s happened, it’s jus the first time that I’m in tune, aware, looking for it and listening for it.
I’ve begun to read, Crash the Chatterbox, by Steven Furtick, and my eyes, and mind… are really becoming aware of what I allow my mind to tell my heart.
And much of it is lies.
Down right, Dirty!
You see this is what my thoughts did…
(Now I can’t quote them, verbatim, but this is the bunny trail they followed, basically…)
What a beautiful morning.
Look how the sun plays so beautifully on these lovely hardwood floors.
I’m so glad I picked them out. I did such a good job picking them out.
I love the dark brown color of them.
Look how the light bounces around… like it’s dancing.
(me walking across the kitchen)
Look how… what the heck?
Man, the floors are dusty. I need to swiffer.
Eeww! Look at all that crap under the trash cabinet. (nicely lit by the sunlight)
Oh my gosh… it’s all along under the sink.
How did I not notice this?
How did I let it get this bad?
Did anyone notice it yesterday when they were in my kitchen?
How come the kids didn’t see it?
I’ll have to get this cleaned up as soon as I get back home.
I really should get the kids to work on this also.
But if I ask, they’ll just say, “later,” and never do it.
I’m really not tough enough on them.
I never really taught them properly how to do chores.
They’ll probably never really know how to clean their own houses well.
I bet other mom’s have their kids doing chores right now.
Their kids are probably up early on this Saturday morning, not like mine, still asleep.
I’m really not a very good mom.
I’m really just a bad mom.
And I exited the kitchen feeling less than.
But as I climbed into my car, I realized what had just happened.
So the reason I’m writing TODAY, is that TODAY, is different.
TODAY, I realize that it’s just chatter.
Chatter does not equal truth!
As I delve into more of, Crash the Chatterbox, I am feeling myself resurge. I am remembering who I am. I am feeling purposeful.
My mind… your mind… will be filled today with, on average, 60 thousand thoughts.
Over 48 thousand of those will be negative.
Are you kidding? That’s ridiculous! I’m not going to stand for that!
I’m choosing TODAY, to seek out the 20% of my thoughts that are positive.
But beyond that, I am choosing to set my mind on things above.
And set your minds and keep them set on what is above (the higher things), not on the things that are on the earth. Colossians 3:2
So when I got back home, I set to work, straight away!
I swiffered and vacuumed, making certain to clean out all the “yuk” that causes me to feel bad about my home.
And then I focused my mind on cleaning out all the chatter that does the same to my heart.
I am choosing to replace those negative lies about me, with the positive things that God speaks about me in His word. Here are just a few.
I am strong and courageous. I Chronicles 28:20
I am a masterpiece. Ephesians 2:10
I am precious and honored. Isaiah 43:4
I am royalty. Isaiah 62:3
I am blessed and fruitful. Genesis 1:28
This is not a day to walk around feeling less than.
This is the day that the Lord has made. I will rejoice and be glad in it. Psalm 118:24
Well, in order for us to do that, we have to get to cleaning!
Grab your mind “swifter” and get into all those nooks and crannies.
Don’t listen to the negative thoughts.
Combat them with the positive things that God has to say about you!
That way you can enjoy that dance of sunlight as it plays across the room, and relax instead of noticing the crud!