As I understand it… this is the most important page of a website. The “About” page… Go figure. You came here to see who I really am. I’m not sure why.
And for me… it’s the hardest page to write.
You see… I’m not often the subject of selfies. I grew up in the era of self-doubt. I used to believe that perfectionism and procrastination were my strengths.
And you want to know about me.
Well, I guess I do as well. Because I am finally… yes finally, figuring out who I really am as I just past the 50 year mark. Crazy, I know. But as my two daughters are growing up and out of the house, I’m finding myself less busy with their lives, and needing one of my own.
And while I love my husband of 28 years dearly, to be honest, it’s kind of scary thinking it will be just the two of us again soon. It’s been a really long time since I’ve known this kind of quiet at home.
You see I have worked outside of the house for… well, ever since forever. I remember having a boss who once said, “Lisa, what haven’t you done?” Because I’ve worked since I was 15… in a craft store, a paint store, and a restaurant. I’ve managed small, medium and large office staff. I’ve been in personnel, medicine and education. And through it all, I realize now, that God had it planned that way. And He kept me.
But to be honest, there were plenty of times I didn’t keep Him. When I wandered, strayed and ignored Him. And there were times when I begged and I pleaded, times when I questioned and cried. And each time I turned around, He was always there. Yes, God has always kept me… for He is a faithful God.
And I say to Him now, “You have always been there for me… God, what haven’t you done?”
And so this time… this quiet time in my life, I can hear Him the loudest. And I am so very grateful that the Lord is patient with me. And finally this is what I have discovered about me… this is who I truly am…
Even before he made the world,
God loved me and chose me in Christ
to be holy and without fault in his eyes.
God decided in advance to adopt me into his own family
by bringing me to himself through Jesus Christ.
This is what he wanted to do,
and it gave him great pleasure.
So I praise God for the glorious grace he has poured out on me
who belongs to his dear Son.
He is so rich in kindness and grace
that he purchased my freedom
with the blood of his Son and forgave my sins.
He has showered his kindness on me,
along with all wisdom and understanding.
God has now revealed to us his mysterious plan regarding Christ,
a plan to fulfill his own good pleasure.
And this is the plan:
At the right time he will bring everything together
under the authority of Christ—everything in heaven and on earth.
Furthermore, because we are united with Christ,
we have received an inheritance from God,
for he chose us in advance,
and he makes everything work out according to his plan.
(modified and personal)
I can now say, that I truly understand what it means to find my identity in Christ!